Do You Know That I Miss You ??

Do you know that I miss you???
I hate you but my heart won't let me hit you
My aim is filled with fire and gall
I fire and hit the wall
My shell is death with vengeance within
I fire and hit the wind
Do you know that love you
fine frame and beautiful lips and shining smile
that to hear you and see you makes me weak
do you know it is your love I seek
so long denied my foolish pride
that no one can hurt me by your side
that your power I cannot deny
why do you make me cry???
You know it's a sin
You're a war I cannot win
Do you know that I love you
and that your loss is the loss of all
can you take my call
and be my all and everything
and bring me every joy
and be my toy???
Do you know I miss you
because I cannot hate you
because I need you
and I know it's a sin
and I'll never win with you...

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I do not know what always drives us apart..
We were meant to be together.. For the love of God you have my heart..
You are the other half of me the part that makes both of us whole.. We were gifted with this amazing blessing… Why do you keep running away…

Even after everything that was said.. I still love you though right now I walk around half dead.. I could never hate you.. Im sorry I used those words when the opposite will forever remain true..

All I wanted in this life was to be loved by you.. I never have understood why you always push me away.. Is my love so frightening??That it sends you away..

If you had but asked… I would have given up everything to stay with you.. No matter how hard it would be… Leaving and not showing what I was feeling inside was the hardest thing.. I have and hopefully will ever have to do..

I miss you and still love you always more than I think you will ever know.. I am coming to terms with this anger I hold inside.. Do you really think me so naive that I believed you told me everything.. You forgot how hard it was for me to trust.. and every time.. I would start to trust you.. you would do something that made it impossible..

To be honest and fair… I may not have always known exactly what it was but believe me I noticed when things were off and things you said did not make sense.. I chose my battles or we would have had so many more of them..

I love you and in the end you should have just told me the things you kept inside like you used to and released the burdens you put on yourself.. When did I ever judge? And yes while the things you may have told me.. might have caused me pain.. In the end.. Love always wins…

I love you with a pure heart.. No one loves like I do.. You didnt even have to seek forgiveness it was given without you having to ask…

I would appreciate it if and when you decide to come back… This time .. Please can we make it last..

I need you to be my equal… Give some consideration to my wants and needs..
I am everything (without being cocky)
you ever wanted that your heart longed for.. and despite what you might think.. you were every thing I wanted and ohh so much more..

I know you are far from perfect as am I.
Maybe I tried to hard and pushed things to move to fast.. I was just so excited to have found you at last…

Those few days spent with you are the fondest memories I have.. Just simply being with you made me never want to stop smiling.. I miss you so much.. you have no idea the tears I have cried..

I hope you are confronting all of your ghosts and your demons.. Getting them out of your head. I want it to be just us the next time we share a bed.. Come if you will and save me from a life of misery without you as soon as you can… Even your wishes I would smile..
but how can I ? when you are missing?

I will continue to dream and hope one day your promise will come true.. I would welcome you with open arms and cherish every moment…. I would give everything I have which is not much at this time.. to have your lips touch mine would be simply put devine..

So now here I wait praying it will not be forever…
note.. I hope some day you will find this and have the courage to read it.. you will always and forever have my love.. If you would but allow me for the rest of my life I would tell you so..

I Miss You Each Day In My Life
I Miss You Each Time You Leave

I Miss You Each Time You Say Goodbye
I Miss Everything About You

I Miss Your Smile And Your Laughter
I Miss Your Tender Touch Of Humor

I Miss Your Gentleness And Kindness
I Miss You When You Leave My Sight
I Miss You All The Time

I Miss You When You’re So Far Away
I Miss You With All My Heart

I Miss You In My Thoughts
I Miss You At My Side
I Miss Looking At Your Eyes
I Miss Your Kisses And Your Touch
I Miss You So Much
I Miss You Every Moment

I Miss You Everyday
I Miss You Soooo Much!

-S&J Gift & Collection-
Bila aku bertemu dengan sorang insan nieyh .
Aku terus jadi rapat dengan dia and officially jadi BFF aku .
Mungkin pelik bila lelaki menjadi rapat sesama sendiri , bermanja sana sini tapi kami bukan GAY !
Nama dia ?
Daniel Amin Kok .
Nama panggilan dia ?
Daniel , Danny , Jackz Daniel .
Title dia pada aku ?
1.Abang aku .
2.Adik Aku .
3.Kawan Suka & Duka Aku .

Kesimpulannya ?
Untuk memudahkan apa yg sebenarnya terjadi .
Aku olahkan S&J mcm apa yg ada dkt icon atas tu or mana S&J kt Malaysia nieyh kepada
-Syaf & Jackz Daniel-



p/s: Aku pown tak tahu apa yg aku cuba sampaikan disini (haha), tapi faham2 sendiri je lah okay .
daaaa.....

I love her now and i'll love her forever

I had a special someone
who was always there for me.
she helped me out when i was sad
and made me happy and glee
but then one day
on the floor i lay
cause i found out she was gone
so there i cry
hoping i die
because i have nothing left to live for.
then out of the blue
came something new
a message with my name on it
i read it once
i read it twice
because this message i read made me feel nice.
it’s a message from her
telling me she’s ok
it says heaven is great
i just cannot wait
until you come and see it with me
but not too soon
not until my moon
has turned into the sun
I love her now
i’ll love her forever
and when i die
we’ll be together

I try not to think about you, but
I miss you today
so many memories
so many communications
Who said
even a grain of sand
I treasured it
even sunrise and sunset
I could not forget them
these lively faces
how could I remove them from
my memories
I try not to think about your voice
I will miss talking to you
I try not to think about your smile
I will miss seeing you
I try not to think about our communications, but
I read your farewell letter again
I read the sadness again
I miss your thoughtfulness
I miss our perfect partnership
I can only assume that
at this moment
you miss me too, although
somewhere else, you are silent

Fast and Furious 5

Tak Sabar Aku Nak Tengok Movie Nieyh !!
Oh God !
Cepatlah Launch Movie Nieyh !!
Nak Tengok ! Nak Tengok ! Nak Tengok !!!

Farhain Nabila,

Thank you

Thank you for unwavering faithfulness

during my continual wavering

and for your forgiveness

in return for all my insults

and for your faith in me

in return for my mistrust

There are so many times

I wish that

you would leave me

because I feel that I can

never live up to your goodness

and yet you adore me

Let everything in my being

that keeps me from you

be taken

for I desire only

to hold you

to kiss you

to smell you again

this is my prayer

paint

I’m painting a poem
For you
Right here
In my heart

I’m dipping it
In all the colors of love
I have for you

All the ways I love you
All the flavors
Of giving

All the beauty in me
I’ve been keeping
For you

Here

I like for you to be Still

I like for you to be still it is as though you were absent,
and you hear me from far away and my voice does not touch you.
It seems as though your eyes had flown away
and it seems that a kiss had sealed your mouth.

As all things are filled with my soul
you emerge from the things, filled with my soul.
You are like my soul, a butterfly of dream,
and you are like the word Melancholy.

I like for you to be still, and you seem far away.
It sounds as though you were lamenting, a butterfly cooing like a dove.
And you hear me from far away, and my voice does not reach you:
Let me come to be still in your silence.

And let me talk to you with your silence
that is bright as a lamp, simple as a ring.
You are like the night, with its stillness and constellations.
Your silence is that of a star, as remote and candid.

I like for you to be still: it is as though you were absent,
distant and full of sorrow as though you had died.
One word then, one smile, is enough.
And I am happy, happy that it's not true.

When You Come

When you come to me, unbidden,
Beckoning me
To long-ago rooms,
Where memories lie.

Offering me, as to a child, an attic,
Gatherings of days too few.
Baubles of stolen kisses.
Trinkets of borrowed loves.
Trunks of secret words,

I Cry.

I've had another really bad day today with my Fibro flare-up and I just wanted to sleep all day. I'd forgotten how tiring and painful a flare-up can be, so I've been reading through some of my own feelings on pain and how to deal with it starting with a poem I wrote some years ago.

PAIN
Isn’t it strange, how nature makes your forget,
That terrible pain you have and continually get.
It comes in waves when you least expect it,
And you think, please stop now and give me a rest for a bit.

With my batteries recharged, I’m ready for the next bout of pain,
Gosh, I forgot how it was driving me insane.
I keep my head high and everyone says I look just fine,
But they have no idea how I really feel at this present moment in time.

I may not have bandages and plaster anywhere on my body,
But believe me it just keeps on coming back and driving me potty.
Now I’ve tried everything available in the book,
And yes, it helps but only with my foot!!!

I’m writing this poem as I just can’t sleep,
It’s that awful pain again from the top of my head to the bottom of my feet.
I’m sure one-day someone will find a cure,
But until then I shall just have to suffer some more.

So, while your sleeping like a baby in bed,
Think of me sometime while I try again to clear my head!
I’m afraid that’s all I can think of, for the time being anyway,
That’s until my fuzzy head clears and I start another day

If your suffering in pain today read some of my tips on how to deal with it.

Cherish your good days
Be Happy, no matter what
The storm will pass
Tomorrow is another day
Hang in there
Take it day by day
Thank your friends for being there
Ask a friend for help if you need it
Dont be afraid to rely on others
Think of something positive

"Pain is temporary. It may cast a minute, or an hour, or a day, or a year, but eventually it will subside and something else will take its place. If I quit, however, it lasts forever". Nur Syafiq Bin Yunus

When I’m With You

When I’m With You
In your arms,
I’m in my safe haven.
With you holding me tight,
I have no other craving.
All I need,
is that one look,
that says you’re always there,
just like in a fairy-tale book.
Your eyes talk to me,
as the world stands still.
My once empty heart,
now with love does fill.
Your eyes tell me,
that you’ll love me everyday.
No matter what may come,
you’ll be there to stay.
I tell you everything
and never with a lie.
All my worldly secrets,
and everything that once made me cry.
Everything in my past,
with you I can forget it all.
I know I can trust you,
to catch me if I fall.
If only I could explain,
how much love I have for you.
Then maybe, just maybe
you’d feel it too.

Forever Connected

Every moment we spent together
Has touched our lives, our souls forever
The things that we shared and learned
Is permanent growth that we’ve earned.
The person that I have grown into today
Did not get there by chance, no way
I am who I am partly because of you
And you are YOU because of me, too
The changes I see
and what I have learned about me
are a response to how we affected our lives
and what we discover in each others eyes.
It is uncertain if we have to part or one day live together
Either way, we have touched our lives forever!
No matter what the future will show
No matter what we are told.
We are connected on such a deep levels
That no one can remove that, not even the devil.
Our feelings might be different a year from now
But you are part of me forever somehow
A part of me will always be you
and a part of you will always be me.
no matter what happens ,that much is certain
our souls are one until life closes the curtain.
I will love your forever
For worse or for better
You are tattooed in my heart
And nothing can tear our souls apart.
I will never forget you
For my love is honest and true.

Enough Time Has Passed But I Can’t Stop Loving You

Loving you is not always easy.
Loving you is not always fun,
Loving you is not always good,
But loving you I can not stop.
Loving you caught me by surprised
Loving you makes me happy
Loving you makes me frustrated
Loving you causes me so much pain
But loving you I can not help.
I need you to love me
I need you to want me
I need you to want to love me
I need you to tell me you want me
I know its hard for you to say
I know its hard for you to trust
I know its hard for you to need
But maybe its time to stay.
Maybe its time for you to trust
Maybe its time for you to say
Maybe its time for us to be
Just like I have wished we
Were one day.
I know we have played around
I know we have turned away
I know we have played a game
But I am tried of all the games
I want you now, no more games
I love you and always will please don’t
turn away.

I Always Will

I loved you then,
And I love you still,
I adore you now,
And I always will.

Love Time

If I could have all the time in the world,
I know what I would do.
I’d spend the time,
In pleasure sublime,
Just by being with you.

Every Thought of You

Each thought of you fills me with sweet emotion,
I give to you my deep, complete devotion.
All my fondest wishes you fulfill,
I love you totally, and I always will.

It's You

Of everything I know and love and treasure,
It’s you, my love, who gives me perfect pleasure.
I love your way with me, your touch, your kiss;
To be with you is happiness and bliss.

You're Perfect

Your femininity attracts me,
Your steady strength supports me,
Your tenderness sustains me,
You’re the perfect love for me.

My Everything

When all goes wrong, and my life runs amok,
I think of you, and I get unstuck,
In the midst of chaos, you make my heart sing,
You’re my peace, my happiness, my everything.

I will stay in love with you forever...

How can I stay in love
with you forever?
How can we make our relationship into
a lifetime of sharing and joy?

In order to stay in love forever
I must first find the right person to love
and I have, in you

In order to stay in love forever
we both must understand each other
and ourselves
and we must be completely honest
with each other at all times
We both must have our own goals and interests
and actively pursue them
We both must have complete freedom of thought
and we must encourage each other
to follow our dreams
We must always be fair, kind and supportive
of each other
We must dedicate ourselves to being
equal partners in all that we feel
and in all that we do
We must promise each other that
we will always create time
to just appreciate each other and our love
and that we will never be lazy
and take our love for granted

In order for me to stay in
with you forever
and have a relationship that is
a lifetime of sharing and loving
I must really pledge myself
to this wonderful commitment
and I must really want to stay in love
with you forever
and I do

On your engagement let the angels sing!

On your engagement let the angels sing!
Now let clouds of angels fill the air!
You may think your pledge a mundane thing;
One word of love and angels hover there!
Unborn children wait upon your breath,
Reaching past the hundredth generation,
Even as you touch souls wrapped in death,
Now equal sharers in your celebration.
Give yourselves to mutual delight;
All things come to being out of love.
God said love: Behold, and there was light!
Even so shall you vast spirits move.
May all spirits join you in your joy,
Each rapt in occult pleasure as you toy,
Needing your sweet love to fully be,
Though happy far beyond your ecstasy.

Of love and fortune, happiness and choosing

Of love and fortune, happiness and choosing:
No reason is enough for such a choice.
You total up the winning and the losing,
Out of which comes no commanding voice.
Underneath the numbers is the need,
Reckless as a snowflake in the wind,
Eden once again by love decreed,
Nor can mere knowledge such sweet hope rescind.
Gifts of grace are given but to those
Amazed enough to step into the light,
Great with wonder at the life they chose,
Embracing it with unabashed delight.
May you choose again each day to love,
Each the gift that does the other move,
Needing always someone who needs you,
That fortune not for one find joy, but two.

The Working Man

  Close your eyes my weary one
Rest your head and sleep
Although your day is done
Tomorrow, you might sit and weep.
Because outside your window,
There stand many barren trees
Looking like the empty hopes,
With the leaves, dying like dreams.
I have live many years
Seen and shed many tears,
With bloody hands and busted bones,
And I have heard, that painful moan.
So rest your head my tired Man
And close your eyes and cry,
Because many families I have seen fed,
When only the Fathers had died.
And I have seen the working man
Working hard with other men at their side,
While fighting to protect and defend what they own
With only GOD, upon their side.

So close you're eyes a father
Clasp your hands together and pray,
Pray for your wife and for your Children
And pray to greet them another day.
As we have fought the battles
To put our country back on her feet
But now again, we are forsaken
So close your eyes, and weep.
But then their is your Family
And the home where you do live,
Be proud you were there when tomorrow came
And many will be proud, that you had lived.
Open your eyes my weary one
Stand up and clap your hand
Be proud of what that you have built
But be prouder because you are a working Man.
So give a laugh and and then give a cheer
For together once again we made our stand,
And forget about your worries and your fears
Because GOD does not forsake, a working Man.